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Officially the worst day of my life: [Jul. 8th, 2008|07:51 pm]
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Botched a phonecall with Anish Fucking Kapoor (an incredibly famous and talented artist and our biggest client), learned that my grand uncle, one of my favorite people in the world, is on his deathbed and chose not to go see him so a skeleton wouldn't be my last memory of him, and just got still-want-to-be-friends dumped by one of TWO people I have to hang out with in Oakland. FUUUUUCKKKKK.

I do still want to be friends. Jonah is an incredibly valuable and close friend, but I was really starting to think that after six months, it might have been the real thing and I could maybe start letting myself fall in love with him.
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2008|02:58 am]
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[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

There's a big fire in Bonny Doon and the smoke is slowly encroaching on my apartment. It made for quite the sensational sunset, and made me remember being five or six and sleeping in my clothes those nights during the Oakland Hills fire, in case we had to evacuate. Suddenly, I remembered everything about that first night-my old bedroom in my old house, collecting leaves outside that afternoon, my velcro shoes, Benji the person-sized teddy bear I used to sleep with and how he smelled...it was amazing.
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2008|02:48 am]
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Also, I've realized that I pretty much only write in here when it's 2:30 in the morning and I'm lonely, exhausted and irrational. I will try to ameliorate that.
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2008|02:38 am]
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Another overwhelmed 2:30-ish post.

I'm tired in a sleepless sort of way. Trying not to think too hard about graduating or maybe not graduating, or about how clear it is that I like the boy I am dating more than he likes me and how I've refused to let that thought out of the back of my mind until right now, or about how desperately I miss being in love because it's been almost four years since the last time, or about how my best friends are changing in ways I don't understand, or about how I've stopped answering my phone and how I'm just not capable of understanding my future. I'm a little panicked, and a little lonely, and far too uncertain.

I just need something solid. I need to not live with my parents again. And I really need to never, ever have my heart broken again. I need the voice of reason, but for some reason, I just can't conjure Richie Havens' soothing baritone telling me everything's fine in my head like I normally do when I need to hear the voice of reason.
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if nobody really cares, is it still a mystery? [Mar. 14th, 2008|04:25 am]
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It's almost 4:30 am. I've JUST gotten back from the studio and crawled into bed. Usually now I'd be really proud of myself for being dedicated enough to stay late and get my shit done, but the fact that the four prints I have up are all somewhere between mediocre and subpar is sort of negating that. Nonetheless, I have prints up. That is a fucking MIRACLE.

Now to endure tomorrow's criticisms at open studios...should be fun.
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(no subject) [Feb. 27th, 2008|11:11 pm]
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Photobucket Photobucket

I started this litho stone almost a year ago, and have been staring at it ever since. I am not a big fan of lithography, but I swear to god if I don't print this stupid thing it will kill me. I have dreams about it.
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you think that might be what you fancy? [Feb. 25th, 2008|01:01 am]
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I instantly feel better whenever I am around this girl


and this was an incredible night


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(no subject) [Feb. 12th, 2008|12:16 am]
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I just finished a book I've been picking up sporadically for a year. I miss it already.
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SO INFURIATING. [Feb. 10th, 2008|05:46 pm]
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I just spent nine hours in the studio and only got two crappy prints out of it. Neither is acceptable, but both will have to be turned in tomorrow for critique.

I just can't seem to get my shit together this quarter.
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2008|10:47 am]
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I miss my dog.
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